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Things I want to remember... 2+ years

Because time flies and you blink and all that was big and important becomes small and distant. 

I was looking back through old photos... bless it... I should never do that unless I'm prepared to ugly cry uncontrollably. But alas, I did and I was remembering the things about the girls at that stage and laughed and cried and was like... oh my gosh, how could I forget these things already?! And WHAT ARE THE THINGS THAT I DON'T REMEMBER? to which I had a mini panic attack at the thought of me not remembering EVERY LITTLE DETAIL... So here I am. Tired from potty training bootcamp... and I'm making a list of the things that I want to remember. 

It's not gonna be a fancy well written blog post bc I aint got time for that. But if I never jot these things down, I'll regret it later. So here we go...

Noel 2 years 10 months:

  • You are joyful and goofy. You just learned that you are funny and can make us laugh... and you totally use that to your benefit. Keep up the good work. You've gotten out of many spankings that way. 
  • You have a way with words and sentences. Both you and your sister were a little slow to the speaking game and y'all talked in your twin language as long as you possibly could... but you my little one started figuring out syntax and word structure quite quickly once you got started. We DIE laughing at the things you say. Our favorite of your phrases right now is your "I like..." series. We never taught you how to say "I like," but one day out of no where you said, "I yike chocyate," (which is very true) and then you started saying that for everything you see. So now, usually at least once a day you tell me that you "yike candy/cookies/cake/table/games/the y/Daddy/Chikayay (Chick Fil A)/baths/Kiki/Grammy/Papaw/GDaddy/Sissy" and whatever other random food or object that you can currently see. It's the best. The other day, a friend's mom brought in chocolate tomatoes (who know those were a thing? not me!), and she turned and asked you, "Do you like tomatoes?" And you promptly replied, "No, I yike chocolate." Touché my little one. Well played. 
  • You wink and raise your eyebrows to make us laugh... you especially like to do this to Uncle Dub. 
  • You like to kiss boo boo's. 
  • You still sleep with Po (hippo), but you're not quite as attached to him as you used to be. 
  • You are very independent and like to make your own decisions, but it takes you FOREVER to do so. Ie. You have strong opinions on WHAT color of popsicle you want, but you stand there FOREVER trying to decide and if I interrupt that process and just give you one, or coax you towards a color... glory heaven help me. Your independent and stubborn streak flares, because bless it, nobody puts this toddler in a corner. 
  • Speaking of colors, you know your colors, how to count to 10, and your ABC's. Of course, you frequently intermingle the ABC's and Twinkle Twinkle Little Star when singing them... "ABCDEFG, How I wonder what you are..." It's another fav of mine. 
  • And on the lines of singing... you LOVE to sing, and we LOVE to hear you sing. And surprisingly you and your sister have really good pitch for 2 year olds.
  • You're still the laid back one. But don't get too proud, you still have a feisty streak and can throw a mean temper tantrum. Your fuse is just longer, UNLESS you don't get your sleep... and then bless it... bless us all. You need your sleep or we ALL pay. 
  • You've stopped saying "Papi" and now say "Paci." You also usually don't call me "Baba" anymore and either call me "mama" or "Maba." Which... is entirely your dad's fault because he's been working with you on saying things correctly when I'm not looking. 
  • You LOVE people and aren't afraid of strangers AT ALL. You'll wave and talk to just about anyone at the grocery store. You especially love your sister. That makes me OH SO HAPPY to hear you ask for "Wisity."
  • You're very expressive. 

Felicity Hope 2 years 10 months

  • You are curious and sweet spirited. You are our little engineer wanting to know how everything works and what goes where. You love to figure stuff out and are SO proud when you accomplish a task. I can see it now, you will be the one most likely to color coordinate your school notes and have a planner... It's pretty adorable. 
  • Like I mentioned above, you're sweet spirited and it melts our hearts. You love to snuggle at night and if I'm not giving you enough attention you come up and put both hands on my face and turn my face towards yours and gently say, "Baba look" and smile.
  • You still say "papi" and "Baba" and I love you for it. Hold on to that baby talk as long as you'd like... (unless we get to middle school and you still have a papi... then we'll have other issues to resolve... but you get the idea). 
  •  You still sleep with doggy, but mainly because I keep putting him back in your bed at night (I have issues... i know). You go through phases when you want him, but right now, you like him but aren't too attached. 
  • But you know what you are REALLY attached to? Papis. We tried to take them all away and after 2 days of constant screaming... we finally caved and gave you back one. I mean you screamed for HOURS and wouldn't sleep. It was really quite impressive. I've read a ton of things on toddlers sleeping and almost all of it says that eventually you'll cry yourself to sleep. Nope. You proved them all wrong. On night #2 after HOURS of screaming (I think we were pushing hour #4...) we shoved a papi in your mouth and your eyes closed instantly. I wanted to scream and kiss you all at the same time. 
  • Speaking of tenacity. You are a fiery little one. Both of you were born red headed, but y'all quickly turned blonde. Yet I'm pretty sure that fiery red head is still in you. You have spunk, and sass, and when you set your mind to something, you're going to see it through. And as a result, you can throw some pretty legit temper tantrums, but in time that passion and tenacity will serve you well if you learn how to control and outlet it correctly. 
  • You're strong baby girl. You will move mountains. 
  • You are tender hearted and also love to kiss boo boo's. 
  • You love to clean and organize things. 
  • You love Mr. Hanks, a lot. Like a whole bunch. You love to give him treats and climb on him and pull his tail and roll around on him and hug him and feed him and... you get the idea. You like him a lot... and he's really good to you too. 
  • You're hesitant to people in the store, but you warm up quickly. Usually with people at the grocery store, you watch and observe them for a few seconds before you start talking to them. You're outgoing, but you usually have to assess the situation first before you just jump in. It's actually really fascinating to watch because you'll watch Noel, and sometimes you'll go along with her, but then other times you assess the situation and are like... nope. Not for me. Not gonna do that. And other times you're all in. I wouldn't classify the hesitancy as fear, rather it's more of an assessment. It'll be interesting to see this part of your personality develop. 
  • You love your friends big. You ask for "Hawee" (Holly) and for the grandparents often. I love that about you and Noel both. You also love your sister so well. When you ask for a cookie or snack, you almost always ask for two so you can give one to sissy. I can't tell you much my heart explodes whenever you do that. 
  • You love car rides and Target, and almost EVERY MORNING you say, "Baba, caw wide? Tawget?" Yes baby yes. Almost always... yes. 
  • You just discovered Mickey Mouse and are borderline obsessed. I'm not mad about it. 

You both are such a joy. People ask me all the time if I have a favorite... which COME ON PEOPLE... dumbest question ever (and we get a lot of dumb q's about having twins). And I always answer the same... Of course I do. But it changes every day and USUALLY the deciding factor is who is screaming less and let me sleep the longest. And that changes daily. So just for the record I love you both a lot and equally and... I like you both a lot and equally too. I absolutely LOVE that I can see clearly how God has gifted both of you uniquely and how He formed you both as twins, but individuals. He's given you a gift in each other, but I love that He has given you each different giftings to bless each other and the people around you. 

You won't remember these days, but I want to. I want to remember everything (thus the post). But I pray that what you do remember is the feeling that you have always been loved, adored, and cared for. You have two parents who think the world about you, who pray for you, who kiss your boo boo's and light up at your smile. And you have one parent who has serious issues and boohoos at milestones, and a sane parent who has to find the crazy parent ugly crying while digging out the papis out of the trash can and putting them in a keepsake box. Lucky for you... you have at least one normal parent. I apologize in advance for how my BIG LOVE for you will embarrass the snot out of you when your teenagers. But for real... you're loved oh so much.


September is coming! September is coming!


Friends, August is almost over.

I'm just letting you know because it definitely snuck up on me. The Mister and I were chatting the other night about plans for Labor Day weekend, and when I mentioned how far away it was... He just looked at me like I was oblivious (bc I was) and politely informed that it was next week. NEXT WEEK PEOPLE. And I fell out of my chair from the shock of it all... Where does time go? Seriously. I'm pretty sure August just started... how can it be ending so soon???

All that to say... 

September is coming... THE FALL IS COMING!!!!!

Fall means a lot of different things to different people. But one of the things I LOVE about fall is the food (duh). None of you are surprised by that, I know. So last week when it dipped below 70 those few days, I may or may not have pre-gamed a bit and made the first batch of chili this year. A little premature... I know. But I just got SO excited about the cool weather! I was tempted to break out my fall decor to celebrate, but we're currently staging our house and prepping for putting it on the market so since less is best, I only put out a few things.  



Yup, my two FAVORITE fall candles from Bath & Body Works (Leaves and Autumn) and my football decal for the Happy Everything Plate. Seriously, these items just make my heart flutter. Speaking of football... We are 1 week away from NC STATE's first home football game. To say our family is excited is probably a gross understatement. We may or may not have the girls' outfits already picked out. And we're starting to recruit babysitters for late evening games. Seriously... I told you we're excited.  

All this to say... FALL IS JUST AROUND THE CORNER. And this mama's heart is excited by thoughts of crisp evenings, the beautiful Raleigh tree line, cobblers, babies in hoodies, soups, exploring a pumpkin patch, and the potential to break out my boots. Oh and being able to run without feeling like you're being suffocated by the humidity will also be nice! ;)

And right after FALL is the HOLIDAY season... Heaven help the Mister... this is my FAVORITE time of year. People, we're on the brink of my giddy season, so yall be warned and watch out. The blog could potentially have an obnoxious amount of spice and glitter. I'll try to keep it to a minimum... but I'm not making any promises. 

Enjoy these last few days of August! 



A letter to my girls

Noel & Felicity, You are three months old now, beautiful and growing, yet oh so small. Felicity we took you to the doctor last week and you were still only 7 lbs. 8 oz. and Noel, although you're bigger it's only by a half a pound or so. I've been meaning to write to you throughout this process, but needless to say you both have kept me on my toes. :)

One day, when you're older, I pray you'll read these letters and know that you have been and always will be oh so loved. I'm not going to lie, there is a part of me that knows that life is short and unpredictable, and if by chance the good Lord decides to take me home before you can know my love, I want to at least capture bits in pieces of it in word. Obviously, my prayer is to be able to watch you grow up, bicker with you during your teenage years, and see you transform into a woman, a wife, and mother. But one never knows what the future holds, and if I didn't leave you with at least letters, I would regret it. And if God does grant me my desire for a long and healthy life, I look forward to giving these letters to you one day. So periodically on this blog, as a discipline, I will write to you.

Oh girls, these past few months have been quite the adventure. I pray one day you'll know the joy of having children, because it really has been a joy. Don't get me wrong, you two are sweet, but you're also divas. You and those "wabbanubs" (your animal pacis) are inseparable and if by chance you pull it out of your mouth or it falls out... the world has ended and your dad and I rush to plug you back up. I think the first few weeks after we brought you home from the NICU I spent the majority of my time sticking those darn pacis back in your mouths. So much so that we tried to ween you off of them, and were almost successful until you developed reflux and the doctor said sucking pacis helped... so alas, we caved. And the four of you were reunited.

You are too sweet though. The three of us have plenty of snuggle time together and I must confess, it is my favorite. You were always great at holding your heads up, even when you were barely over 3lbs in the NICU. I love it when I'm holding you both in the rocker and you both hold your heads up to look at me and just stare. It truly melts my heart. You're starting to sleep better now too, but those first few months I rarely slept. I usually spent my nights rocking one of you to sleep, and then rocking the other. But during these moments you need to know that you were prayed over repeatedly. I would pray that God would keep you healthy, and that you two would grow up loving one another dearly. I'd pray that your sisterly bond wouldn't be broken throughout your lives. But most importantly I prayed that God would call you to himself one day. I prayed that you wouldn't merely be religious, but that you would have a zealous love for His word and His church. I prayed that He would keep you from too much heartbreak and from the pain of this world. Now I know that you will experience both heartbreak and pain, but you can't blame a mom for asking. I just pray that I am always close enough to hold your hand, or offer words of encouragement during these moments.

You need to know that your pregnancy and delivery were abnormally horrible, but that you were worth every minute of that pain. I remember holding you for the first time; sadly it wasn't until 2 days after you were born until I could hold you both at the same time. But I remember it oh so well. Little tubes and wires everywhere, and you were perfect. I remember looking at you both thinking, "My goodness, they are beautiful." And I've thought that every day of your lives ever since.

It is kind of freaky how much you look alike, yet I can see differences. Noel, you look like my side of the family. When you smile or furrow your brow, you look like your Uncle Matt and Papaw. And Felicity, you look like your Uncle Whit and Granddaddy JT. It is amazing. And for the record, I've said that from the time you were born and people thought I was crazy. But now, folks are starting to see it too.

I am loving this newborn phase of your lives, babygirls. It's been longer than most since you were 9 weeks early. And although it does come with a few cons (ie. little to no sleep for months...), its pros are even better. I got 9 extra weeks of the super cuddly extra small phase, and I've loved every second of it.

You need to know that aside from marrying your dad, you are my greatest joys in life. Even now, I cannot fathom life without you. It is an absolute joy to be your mom and to care for you - and I pray that one day you get to experience these joys, these sweet moments of motherhood yourselves. You both are gifts from God and I can't wait to see what the next phase holds and how your little personalities blossom and explode.

You will always and forever be my daughters, and I will always and forever love you.

Your mom,